Well. It has been a while since I have written here. I have a lot of things going on, personally, and I cannot write about them here right now. What's rather ironic is that I have a lot to say. Lots and lots. I am a talker and a writer. I want to talk everything out and at the same time I want to write down all my thoughts. And here, on my blog, I tend to write what I want to say. I don't have to write about what other people think, or want to hear. It is my place to write what I want, how I want, everyone else's opinions be damned.
But I do try not to hurt people purposefully. Because above all, I believe that I am a kind and good person. And in those circumstances when what I am thinking or want to say is hurtful or maybe just not public-forum-stuff, well, then I need to be quiet. And write in a private (read: not online) journal because the writing, too, has an important place in my life. It helps me to reflect, to sort things through. Sometimes it helps me to breathe, just getting those thoughts out of my head.
So I ask you to bear with me during my self-imposed blog silence. I am doing well. Better than well, at times. And hey, I am doing the NJ Mudderella race on May 10th (the day after my, gulp, 39th, birthday) with some awesome high school mates. I think it is just the thing I need right now. Because we are stronger than we realize, all of us, especially when we have amazing family and friends surrounding us. I will be sure to post some pictures of the awesomeness that will be me covered in mud and smiling.
