So what happened this time? I saw pictures of myself, in pajamas no less, at Christmas and was not happy with what I saw. But more importantly, I don't feel comfortable in my body right now. I am at my heaviest ever and it does not feel good. It feels awkward and uncomfortable. I do not want to get comfortable at this weight. As I get older, it will only become harder to lose the weight. Hence, the time is now.
I had actually decided this a few weeks ago but then Nanny died and I was not able to really make decisions like this. I put everything on hold for 2 weeks. This week was my new start. I woke up to work out before work 2 days and brought healthy food with me for breakfast, lunch and snacks. I have been cutting out a lot of the extra snacking and caloric drinks that I was having, especially in the afternoons and evenings.
I can tell that I am really ready to make this change because even after only a few days of cutting out a lot of the junk and sugar I am not only not craving it, but not wanting it when offered to me. Don't get me wrong, I am still having my one cup of coffee in the morning with half and half and sugar and I have not cut out the extras completely yet. But it is drastically reduced and I plan to continue cutting down. It is amazing that not having sugar makes me not want sugar but that eating sugar makes me crave more and more.
I love candy, like gum drop-type candy, and I had a little bit this week. The bottom line...I just can't even have one. Same with chocolate. There were some Hershey kisses at work, just a couple, but since I did not have one, I did not want one. But if I had eaten one, I would have wanted them all. It is the same with soda and iced tea. I was having one with my lunch almost every day. But when I stopped having them when I was home over Christmas break I did not feel like I needed those drinks anymore.
I really feel like I am on a good path. I am feeling good about living healthier. Already I feel a little less uncomfortable in my body and look forward to feeling better and better about myself.