Tomorrow is the start of the 2011-2012 school year. It marks my 10th year teaching (minus the first year I was a kindergarten wrap teacher with no clue); my 6th year in Hoboken; my 2nd year with the Hoboken BOE as a master teacher. It also marks the 3rd year that I had to go back to work after some time off and leave Lilly. Oh, how hard it is! I don't think it will ever get easier, will it friends?
There are so many positives to working, not the least of which being the paycheck and having health insurance for my family. I love what I do and hope that this year I can become even better at it since I know what I am doing a little more. Tonight as I was putting Lilly to bed I asked her if the reason she was giving me such a hard time was because she was sad that I was going back to work tomorrow. She nodded yes, buried her head into my neck and sobbed as if her little 3 year-old heart was breaking. Oh, how my heart broke at that moment! I do not even know how to describe how I feel right now.
I know that I need to work and even if my husband had an amazing job that paid megabucks I think I would want to work. And I know that I am leaving Lilly in good hands with her Daddy and MumMum. Hopefully we will get good news this week about Vinnie's job and Lilly will be able to go to daycare, which she loves. It is just this, right now, sucks.
But fear not fellow Hoboken teachers! I promise not to bore you too much with Lilly pictures and stories. I am actually really excited for this school year. I think it will be a great one!